GM diet again, a rant

So I started the GM diet again. Day 1 was surprisingly easy. I managed to eat mostly melon. Only had to add a tiny bit of protein so I didn't destroy my body while I had to train. I have got to stick to it this time. I have a very good reason. I just need to be less. The feeling of control was so satisfying. I didn't even want to cheat. Tomorrow will be hard, but I'll be strong.

A rant: So there was this guy and we dated for a while, like years. I went away. He hooked up with this girl but I didn't care because we were open. I stayed gone, fell in love with someone else. He never told me that that one girl had become the girl. But they both told all of my friends that I knew about it. This thing started before I lost my heart to someone else. It shouldn't matter. But they conspired to lie to me and have my friends lie to me. And now every time I see them on the internet it breaks my fucking heart. I shouldn't care, but I do. And it sucks. And all of my friends still adore them and seem to ignore what they did to me. 

Oh well. At least I have control. I have ana. She's always there for me, whether I want her or not. And right now, she's one of the only things holding me together.

Stay strong and think thin my pretties. Homework: 200 jacks. 200 situps. Touch your toes.

MY RETURN

Wow. I've been gone forever. Well, I'm back now and I really ought to be posting regularly again. I have a huge backlog of thinspo and even some personals updates.

I'm back stateside now. Missing the boy like mad. I've also decided that I no longer take public transit if I can avoid it, so I bicycle everywhere. I've been training up to six days/week, but not enough hours every day. I will make up for it over the winter tho.

No numbers updates until I make enough money get a new scale. I kinda destroyed my good scale (and I couldn't take it with me anyway) in the name of art. Right after I got back, I got weighed at Planned Parenthood and they told me 128lbs, which kinda makes sense. I wasn't really doing anything but living on couches and eating after a summer of lazing about. So, here's to hoping we're inching down under the 120 mark, or hovering around 125 due to increased muscle from all the biking. Amusingly, I've got a few pairs of jeans that fit better now than when I was last seriously thin. Size 27 Joe's are too big in the waist, as are size 27 Antik denim (and those don't have ANY stretch, like at all).

I've eaten way too much today as well, but oh well. Tomorrow's gonna burn it all off, plus I have an entire that I can pretty much fast through on my way up north after that. It's gonna work out and off. I can feel it.

And now! THINSPO! I can't believe I left you all without thinspo for so long. I'm hiding in the mix! None of you even complained! And, HOMEWORK: 200 situps, 200 jacks, any order, any situp.