fat day

today failed miserably.

foods:
.5 grapefruit
2 plums
1 nectarine
1 avocado smoothie
.5 miso
8 pieces salmon sushi
1 snickers bar
1 cup egg white cooked with cottage cheese and salsa
1 slice sprouted grain toast with mustard and light harvarti cheese
6oz fat free yogurt
.25 candy coated chocolate sunflower seeds
1 slice of lemon poppy-seed loaf

i want to die. i can't purge. since i quit doing drugs that made me vomit all the time, i can't make myself puke, no matter how hard i yank on the back of my throat. it's like it's numb. i hate this. i'll be fat forever. i guess i'll give myself some thinspo for tomorrow.






i guess i should have a plan for tomorrow.
fruit only. there we go.
i can have a plum for breakfast, a plum for lunch.
a nectarine for dinner and a peach for dessert.
i can start the GM diet that way. sweet. maybe this will work.