I have missed this blog. The boything takes up most of my free time, hovering near my computer, so I hardly get to think about posting, much less really updating what's going on with me and Ana.
But Ana is back with a vengeance. In theory, this 7 day diet that I'm on can lose me up to 13lbs. I like this. I would be back in the 120s if I'm not there already. Today is fruit day. Nothing but fruit, but as much I want of it. The diet is really unclear as to whether the occompanying soup is allowed on Day 1 but I was going to flip out if I didn't have some amount of salt. It horrifies me how calm my brain went once I had soup. No more of that today. That's for damn sure.
Tomorrow is vegetable day. I will try valiantly to update, maybe keep the boy at bay. but you know how those things go. But yeah, vegetable day. I get a potato for breakfast. Then all the veg I want all day. It's weird being unrestricted. I don't know what to feel bad about.
So far, I'm actually looking pretty thin. My arms are nice and pointy and my chest ribs and collarbones are looking nice. My legs are still lard factories though, so I hope some decent weight loss will find its way there.
Stay strong and think thin!
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
making up for lost time
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back on the wagon
sorry for being gone so long. Recovery sneaks up on you. Just like relapse. So i'm back in starvation land. Doing the GM diet. It's all fruit day and and I'm already flipping out. The taste of fruit makes me gag and it's only been 6 hours. Just had a bowl of soup, which I'm technically allowed, but probably not on the first day. I'm only justifying cheating with a 62cal bowl of soup because I'm on a very physical course. More fruit to follow and I'll burn the soup off fast anyway. I want to stick to this as best I can tho. But I've already fucked up...
More ranting and photo dump later. I never forgot you, my lovely skinnies.
More ranting and photo dump later. I never forgot you, my lovely skinnies.
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