Monday, July 27, 2009

too hot to eat

it's too hot at home to do anything but sip water and maybe nibble on cucumbers. this is a great way to starve myself, but god i hate how hot it is. i can't DO anything. i want go outside and play and practice, but this is just so miserable. i don't even know if i can stand putting tights on to go train. at least it's cooler there. and nice air conditioned public transit in between. ack. enjoy some thinspo. i'm still losing.

my truly anorexic friend (but totally in denial about, at least publicly) told me not to lose any more weight. i take that as inspiration. pants that didn't fit last year fit now... loosely. hooray!

stay strong and thing thin my skinnies!

Saturday, July 18, 2009

home again home again

I got home from the Europe trip yesterday. Somehow, I lost size. My dickies shorts fit loosely again, a feat unheard of in the past year. i can see more bones in my chest with minimal movement and with right posture, the two points of my collarbone are visible again.

it's great see so much progress once more. alas, there were some horrible monetary losses in europe and i had to spend today selling some of my benchmark jeans to make a few dollars back. it's okay though. i kept my dear favorites. they weren't that functional even when i was thin enough to wear them.

back at home, it's too hot to eat... just like it was in europe. i'm in an uncomfortable but wonderful haven of satisfying ana.

there will be thinspo later when blogger is less sucky.