I am dredging and mulling. I know what caused it. All this old bitterness came swarming up to the surface after last week. I'm overly conscious of my weight, which I believe is immense and whale like. Last week, I was talking to a person who worked in the same club that I used to feature at. And I asked them if it had gotten better, etc, and mentioned how I had gotten blacklisted for no reason, only to hear later that it was because I was too fat. And the response was unexpected. "Well, Frank really doesn't like girth." Those words rattle around in my head, all day and all night. Validation, that I am in fact huge. And fat. Deserving of the word "girth". I feel ill. This is making me angry.
I was healthy for a while. That has to change. Back down the sick road we go.
So stay strong and think thin, lovelies. 500 situps. Go!
4 comments:
Earlier on your blog you were 116 . So close to what you wanted to be. Because of your success with the GM diet . Do it again and lose the pounds and gain the confidence . You deserve the body ou dream of, so go get it!
Also you are very toned and muscular so maybe that's why your thighs are still touching . Remember muscles weigh a lot more than fat. And web you get more toned, you will automatically weigh a lot more. Guess you'll have to chose . Being toned or being 115 pounds .
Stay strong , xoxo Jo
I have nominated you for the liebster blog award <3
I have nominated you for the liebster blog award <3
I can't believe they said that! Like they just put you on the back burner for that. I would be so pissed. Yet again the proven facts that skinny bitches get catered too. smh.
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