this week

has not gone well at all.

i feel huge. my pictures are starting to reflect. i'm injured, again.

at least i'm sore. i got one hell of a workout on wednesday, but i haven't been able to do it again since then. i got to dance a bit tonight, and bike to and from school. i have lose at least 3 pounds in the next week. tomorrow, the nalgene leaves the house with me again. dammitall. i can't feel like this. i want to feel empty. i want it so fucking much. ED readers, send me thinspo, bones, reverse. whathaveyou.

i shouldn't be awake right now, but i've been up all night munching and doing reading. i wish i had thinspo to show off, but i've been too busy to sit in front of a computer for hours looking for a new bony girl to upload to photobucket.

i want a restriction buddy. someone to pounce on me when i'm going to eat something terrible.

tomorrow is for very little food and very much drunk. alcohol has too many calories. i think i'm going to have a 200 cal breakfast and then celery and cucumber snacks until the drinking begins. then as long i avoid the drunk munchies, i'll be well off for a good start on saturday.