the chubs

i think i'm finally getting thinner again. training 4 or five days every week is definitely helping with days at the gym during off days for training. i have muscle definition. the 2 in the six pack i used to have are back. things hang looser. i've been hovering around 1000-1200 calories on every training day. at this rate, i might be thin again by graduation. that would rock. i fit into an old (huge when i was skinny) jeans while wearing long johns. that was rewarding.

and i have a new round of training at ass early in the morning tomorrow... but i'm still going out anyway.

since i train so often, i actually have to eat, so i've found ways to make really awesome, nearly negative calorie meals. i think the last thing i made even qualified as vegan. i just hate consuming protein because it adds so many calories to an otherwise harmless salad or dish. alas. it keeps my muscles from hurting as much as they would without it... since they hurt all the time anyway. grrr.

ps

mass posting thinspo sites add up to a good workout. ten situps per photo. twenty for allegra versace. twenty for any reverse triggers. i just did 650 situps. take that, fruitcake.

fruitcake will be the death of me

I have to reply to a comment and make a general message:
*Broken*: don't take straight caffeine pills. They will just make you feel speedy and sick. Take a fat burner with some herbal proprietary mix in too. It takes more than caffeine to help your metabolism. I'd recommend Ripped Fuel or Fireball Liquid Fusion (these are kind of scary at first. Way way lots of caffeine plus a bunch of other metabolic uppers)

Straight caffeine sucks. It has made me so sick in the past. I used to take like four (800mg) to see what happened. It's about like drinking 4 cups of coffee in under a minute. It sucks. My guts felt like they were tying themselves in knots and I hurled so hard. Just don't do it.

And fruitcake is evil. It will make you regret trying recovery once. Ugh.