Monday, April 19, 2010

ten ten ten, for everything everything everything

Boys are stupid. So apparently, he was kidding the whole time with the "don't tell anyone" shit, which pisses me off. Also, he managed to write off the lying, the hurtful shit done to just to see what my reaction was etc, as accidental, he didn't know what to say so he said something and all of it came out wrong. Goddammit. all this mess had me in tears most of the day of a big production opening too. drinking to keep one's spirits up before they go onstage... just no, not so good. today will be better, but i'd rather just sleep the next two hours until i have to get back into hair/makeup/costume.

I feel gross and fat and wrong. i'm soon off on a bike ride. it's raining and i don't care. i just need to do something, wake up my body. ugh. enjoy the thinspo.


SBB said...

I agree, boys are unbelievably stupid.

Anonymous said...

That was so wrong of him to play with your emotions the way he did.

I'm so sorry hun.. Be good to yourself, I know your frustration is telling you to take this out on your body right now, but you were the one who got used. Any one of us would have reacted the same way to what he did to you.

Please take care.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry something like this happened to you. You need to think is this boy really worth it. He is playing games with your head when he should be comforting you and making you stronger. He should be helping you tackle life, not complicating it further for you.

NiCOLe said...

beautiful ladies :)