my fatass looks skinny

i look thin. but i feel huge. the scale made me cry today. i hope it doesn't do that tomorrow.

steady

at 122.4 this morning.

tonight was bad though. dammit all to hell. tomorrow i will bring tums and diet coke to school. none of my friends will be eating anyway. so they won't notice when i'm not either.

morning weight

122.4
not as bad as i thought.

i was really good today... until a little while ago. midnight breakfast. i am such a pig. but, honestly, i think i still ate under my basal metabolitc calorie necessity so today should still be for losing.

tomorrow is school again and i don't have to eat. i can just hide all day and study. i need to anyway.

dammit

so fat. so sad. ate very little today. feel fat. stomach looks HUGE. ew. will post weight in the morning. then i will cry. this blog has gotten one view in the past several months, bringing me to a grand total of 76. where the hell are a you other pro ana girls anyway? it's lonely in here.

when i get free time again, i will post huge amounts of thinspo, but until then, why don;t you all help me out. i'm sick of being this fatass. i need to lose ten pounds and only starving will get me there. help.

yup, massive

just like i suspected.
morning weight: 122.6

fasting tomorrow/today

i did so fucking well. i was at 122 this morning. my belt was on its last notch again. and then we went out and indulged on drunk greazy food. fucking dammitall to hell. i'm afraid to look at the scale tomorrow. so it's water and water only until little before going out time.

for the sake of being accountable though, i'll have my morning weight to post tomorrow.

this morning

122lbs.