Wednesday, December 13, 2006

i fucking deserve this, i know

morning weight: 124.4

my size 28 jeans fit again. that's so gross. they're still a little loose, but the legs fit again and that's disgusting. last spring my 26's were getting too loose. how do i keep failing? i show more bones too these days than when i was really doing poorly. it's just such a fucking copout to so say that it must be muscle mass. i'm a fatass. i deserve those numbers. no food. anymore. after finals. until i see my boyfriend and have to play normal. but until then dammit.

food eaten:
1 bowl high fiber cereal (1.5 cups)
.75 C rice milk

planned food:
.5 C tuna on salad. it's brain food for test taking.

bowl of veggies to take to exam for nervous munching.

post exam: booze. nothing more.

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