Friday, April 24, 2009
feel huge and fat and gross. have to be awake in less than seven hours. shit fuck ass dammit. i just want my body back. i want diet pills that work again. i want to throw away every food item in my house. i want to disappear. i feel like i don't have any friends that really care about me, and how can I when all of this self-loathing about my body fills up my head? i miss having an ana buddy. i really do. someone to call me and tell me that i should drink a glassof ice water and run around the block. ack. gotta sleep. hope some of my fat magically goes away. will work out way harder tomorrow.