so i didn't do that one right

i think i gained two pounds on that diet. so i quit it. this morning. i'm eating pears for breakfast. in extra light syrup. i guess it's back to good old restricting. maybe my body will be shocked enough by all the weird shit that i've been doing to it. maybe the weight will just melt off overnight. this morning found me at my all time high for the past two years. 128.8. i want to cry. i though 127.6 was bad. fucking goddammit. i hate this body. i want my thin days back.