omigod 200 followers

So much to celebrate! I have 200 followers! In honor of my huge batch of lovelies, I'm going to do 200 squats, 200 situps, and 200 fonda's (inner thigh lifts). Also, I stepped on a scale today, something I haven't done for months, and I'm under 125! I'm so close! That's like one GM diet away from being reasonably thin again!

Despite the fact that it's christmas and i'm at my mom's cooking pies and potatoes and awful stuff, I have made it down to 122 ish. That's so nice. And I'm changing up my calorie intake and exercise regimen so often that it will probably just make me lose more weight. I'm drinking tons of water and really my calorie intake is pretty normal (by like standard american normal), and I'm just not overexercising like I want to. I'm trapped with shitty lungs due to allergies, so I can't do really any cardio. But I'll be back in school soon enough. I'm going to buy a scale again once I'm back home. And I've got my reps to do because of you lovelies!

So hooray! Stay strong, think thin, and Happy Holidays. Enjoy your family time, skip the eggnog and we'll all get through to 2012 thinner and happier. Join me in the 200 challenge when you read this. Squats, situps, and side-lying crossover lifts (fonda's). 200 of each.

can i cry now?

i hate my thighs so much. it's actually embarrassing to walk around in leggings without short or a long top on over them. but i had to change out of a dress into another dress and then take both back home, but i didn't want to put the other one on, so i just kept my unitard and leggings on. and it was the most painful 5 minutes of my life. people SAW me. ew. Why would I let that happen... i just feel so fat today. my gut is huge and saggy and my thighs big chunky monstrous things and I don't deserve to eat ever, but I have to otherwise my body will quit and I'll get hurt and I'll lose the course and my time here. I hate that balance. I just have to ace this week and I'm already skipping practice time to write this (among other things) and drink green tea. Ugh. Maybe I'll feel better later when I've had more than 2 hours sleep before an intensive morning.

paper writing vs the chubs

I'm doing academic crap and it's awful. I keep drinking tea and getting more caffeinated and then getting hungry and the eating something and then hating myself. Fuck. Oh well. I'm interspersing the writing with situps and squats and jacks so I think we'll balance out okay. I'm supposed to have a do nothing, eat everything day anyway. The last two pics are me from yesterday, so i'm really not doing too badly. I'll just have to take it out of my hide all week until i go home for xmas, when I can really get my starve on, oddly enough. I've had about 500cal today, plus tea. I'll probably end up around 1200, maybe less if the boy doesn't come up.

He made a wonderful and perfect apology for his going to psycho at me. So things are looking up in that respect... minus the part where I have to go home to my other boyfriend and rapidly readjust and convince my body that this is what it wants instead of what it's used to... relationships are dumb.

But oh well. Enjoy the thinspo. Laugh at my fat. If you want to contribute thinspo, toss it in my comments and i'll throw it in the folder for future posting. Stay strong, think thin. And on this lazy sunday, do 50 squats, 50 pushups, and 100 ab reps of your choice. Try to make half of the pushups the tricep kind.