i hate being right all the time

so i'm fatter today. 122.8 lbs. i don't understand how that works. whatever. all i can do is try harder today. work harder, eat less, drink more water. i just wish i knew how i did that in the past. i hate being a huge fatass. i hate it. i want to weigh in the one teens. i want my ribs to stick out more. i want to pretty. i want to wear my size 26's again and have to hold them up with my belt on the last buckle. sigh.