i know that it wasn't a fluke. there has been a definite loss of mass. this is good. this why tomorrow is for coffee, splenda water, and regular water. oh, and diet coke. but yeah, tomorrow is for basically fasting... until it's time to get drunk. this is good. i keep telling myself that. i'm starting to feel better, but the numbers aren't convincing. i need more progress. i need to weigh 118 again before i see my boyfriend. i work hard, but it's not enough. i get closer and closer to blacking out every day, but then i eat instead of just hoping that i won't fall down. i did black out for minute in the gym today... i rolled off the ball while i was stretching and almost smacked my face into the assisted pull-up machine next to me. i just hope the numbers are forgiving tomorrow. my guts weren't... uh... moving as well as they should today. hopefully tomorrow will be better for that. liquids only.
hopeful thinsp time!
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