372 calories for breakfast
if every meal i eat today is smaller than that with no snacking, i'll be fine.
.5 grapefruit
.75 cup fat free cottage cheese
1 full fat poptart
i have the chance to do stupid amounts of workout today if i choose to. i can hit the gym, and then at 5pm-ish start a two hour round of dance classes. come home for bit, take a break (or a nap) and go to rehearsal. hmm.
same old story
- so_alone
- me. i don't see me, but you do. i want to see me as you do, or as you say you do. you humor me when you say i'm tiny? are you laughing inside when you describe my pitted hulk as skeletal? i want to be happy with me. it's like someone pulled the gauze from my eyes and i see now, how imperfect, how weak, how ugly i am now, and just how perfect i really was when there was so much less of me. The less of me that you can see, the easier it is to love what's left of me. Honestly, I don't step on scales anymore. I can't. I'll go too far over the edge. I measure my world in sizes. I am currently a US size 6-8, UK 10. My ultimate goal size is a 4. I want my good jeans to fit. I want my thigh gap. And I want to be thin.
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