i wish i didn't suck at purging

i ate velveeta product. i want to so badly to vomit and dose myself with laxatives, but i'm too tired to take laxatives without unpleasant repercussions, and i can't purge. like, i'm physically unable to do it anymore. to top it off, i had a pop tart for dessert. so i've eaten now, exactly half of the total calories i burned today. that is wrong. gross. ghastly. i'm going to be at the gym for so long tomorrow.