Sunday, April 15, 2007

one upon the lips, forever on the hips

Not thinspo.... just fucking gorgeous.

fucking dammit. i am such a stupid fatass. I should have had that other liter. I should have stayed up til five. But no. I'm dumb. I'm fat. So I wake up to 124.4.

how do I intend to punish myself? 1 quart of grapefruit juice and energy drinks for the rest of the day. my one carb item of the day was 1/2 bowl of raisin oatmeal. I'm such a pathetic fatass. I hate myself so much on days like this. oh and of course the torment of posting thinspo when i weigh about 20lbs more than most of the girls featured.

1 comment:

Fei_Yen_Kn said...

*hugs* I'm sorry. We all mess up, you know. To me, it's the hardest part of having a disorder. 1 step foward and 2 steps back. 2 days of liquids and the scale reads the same. But one binge and I'm like 2 lbs heavier. It's agonizing.